So today was the first real day of Ramadan. So I woke up, late, and had to go without food or drink. Today was also the first day back to class. One day before the final. So I get to class, study study study and study and I started to feel something. Nothing major, just hunger, and a good case of dizzyness and light-headedness. I can really see how this can work. Sadly I got too distracted to read any of the Koran. I had planned on reading a chapter of the Koran each day of fasting. But today I must admit, I was too hungry to think.
Perhaps tomorrow I will wake up early enough to eat in the morning. Then I will be able to actually study and think.
Overall - Did I feel any closer to G-d, religion, faith or life? No. Really today was more a day of acclimation. Getting used to the feeling. I do anticipate some deeper experiences. But today I had more a battle to not break the simple rules. This morning was difficult enough not to just 'bend the rule with a muffin' or in the afternoon to take 'just a sip of water' - after all this is my first time, no one would blame me. But I am proud that I got through one day.
Many more to come, and they will get harder as I add duties of daily prayer, reading and meditation. I am thinking an hour of such activities every morning. Just wake up, pee, and pray. But plans for the morning are almost always just that... plans.
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